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The Memorial

They crossed the threshold.

We carry their light.

You’ve entered the Memorial.

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These flames do not flicker in the wind — they burn steadily in faithful remembrance.

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Every name whispered here once belonged to someone who walked deeper into the dark than most would dare. Some fell in battle. Some were taken. Some quit, and some . . . some . . . simply vanished.

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The Golden Fleece Society does not forget.

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Light a candle. Speak their name.

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And remember: even silence has echoes.

Below are the photos and names of the agents.

Tread carefully, respect their souls.

They are still listening.

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Cadmus - Left GFS 1964
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I was a joke once. I miss being a joke.
Cicero - Left GFS 1969
Cicero - Left GFS 1969
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They teach you to look for patterns. I teach you to see what's missing. That's where the truth hides.
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Cadell - Left GFS 1969
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Look, if someone's offering to share their contraband bourbon, you don't ask questions. You drink, and you toast the gods of poor decision-making. Cheers!
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Cora - Left GFS 1969
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Solitude doesn't scare me. People do.
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Gallus - Left GFS 1969
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What you *are* does not excuse what you *do*. We all carry a past. The question is whether you let it weigh you down or sharpen your edge.
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Godric - Left GFS 1969
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Some people love once and get it right. I loved once and burned everything down. Still, I'd do it again for the chance to hold my girls one more night.
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Hermes - Left GFS 1969
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I've seen what happens when men go chasing miracles. The lucky ones die before they find them.
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Homer - Left GFS 1969
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The field teaches you fast: Never be the first to open the door.
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Hippocrates - Left GFS 1969
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If you're looking for my ghost, don't check the grave. Check the horizon.
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Janus - Left GFS 1969
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The young FRs of today lacks some experience we seasoned have. On the other hand, the experiences they bring to the table are invaluable for understanding the modern times.
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Jupiter - Left GFS 1969
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I've outlived too many good men to believe that virtue keeps you safe.
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George - Left GFS 1973
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Don't confuse chaos with carelessness. I know exactly what I'm doing. The mess is part of the message.
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Geronimo - Left GFS 1973
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Nothing exists in isolation. Every lie has a shadow, and every shadow has a source.
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Gina - Left GFS 1973
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Control the narrative, and you control the memory. That's the first lesson in soft revolutions.
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Gideon - Left GFS 1973
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My survival plan? Stay behind the smart ones and outrun the brave ones.
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Castor - Left GFS 1973
Trust is a bridge with no blueprint. You don't know it's collapsing until you're halfway across.
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Caspian - Left GFS 1973
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I know mostly everyone think it's weird, but I'm not ashamed that I like bugs more than most people. Not much, anyway. You know, bugs don't judge. They just . . . do their job.
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Calliope - Left GFS 1973
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DĂșn do bheal, Larry. I *am* the cavalry.
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Caradoc - Left GFS 1976
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Don't let the smile and the friendliness fool you. I've stared down things with teeth the size of your arm without flinching.
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Thomasine - Left GFS 1982
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Field work isn’t glamorous. It's damp, chaotic, and rarely has exits.
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Newton - Left GFS 1989
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Field work isn’t glamorous. It's damp, chaotic, and rarely has exits.
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Cedric - Left GFS 2001
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It started with fog. Thick enough to lose yourself in. And I did.
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Conrad - Left GFS 2002
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To watch is to participate. Even silence has consequence.
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Lucifer - Left GFS 2003
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This work demands everything. If you're not ready for that, step aside before you become dead weight.
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Leandros - Left GFS 2003
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Lavinia calls it beer therapy. I call it hydration with consequences.
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Lavinia - Left GFS 2003
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People talk about finding themselves on dusty roads. I found myself at the bottom of a collapsed tomb swearing like a sailor and loving every minute of it.
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Lisa - Left GFS 2003
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I still think about them. Team L. Every day. I'm not running from grief. It needs to take its time, but the best way to honor them is by choosing my own life.
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Orvar - Left GFS 2005
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He drew a door on the wall. When he opened it, I walked straight through it. No, I don't want to talk about what was on the other side.
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Cindy - Left GFS 2005
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Sanity is a baseline, not a guarantee.
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Rose - Left GFS 2006
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Why does my calendar say 1973? It's not, is it? I thought it was . . . another year, a later year. I feel so confused.
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Ralph - Left GFS 2006
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My memories have cracks in them, but some things slip through that I don't recognize. I don't understand the world anymore.
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Ned - Left GFS 2006
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My memories have cracks in them, but some things slip through that I don't recognize. I don't understand the world anymore.
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Nigel - Left GFS 2006
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My memories have cracks in them, but some things slip through that I don't recognize. I don't understand the world anymore.
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Nadir - Left GFS 2006
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My memories have cracks in them, but some things slip through that I don't recognize. I don't understand the world anymore.
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Uranus - Left GFS 2006
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My memories have cracks in them, but some things slip through that I don't recognize. I don't understand the world anymore.
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Uriel - Left GFS 2006
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My memories have cracks in them, but some things slip through that I don't recognize. I don't understand the world anymore.
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Ursula - Left GFS 2006
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I love someone who only exists in the liminal spaces. It's a difficult situation, overall. But we make it work.
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Cecilia - Left GFS 2006
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I always check my notes when I wake up, but sometimes, I'm not sure I actually wrote them.

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Caesar - Left GFS 2008
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Some mistakes get quieter over time. Others scream every time you close your eyes.
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Neoptomelos - Left GFS 2008
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There’s a man in my dreams who carries a lamp with no flame. I think he’s looking for someone.
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Oona - Left GFS 2008
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You think it was a dream? Cute.
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Olwen - Left GFS 2010
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Field work is 10% action, 90% pretending you're not scared.
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Octavius - Left GFS 2015
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I've lit candles for friends I couldn't save. I've drunk tea with the ghosts of decisions I regret. I keep going. That's all.
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Ophelia - Left GFS 2015
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They think I'm soft. That's fine. Water carves canyons.
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Omega - Left GFS 2015
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You can't rebuild yourself the same way twice. Some parts just refuse to go back.
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Odette - Left GFS 2015
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Life's short. Say the awkward thing. Dance badly. Love hard. Wear color.
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André - Left GFS 2015
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I loved them enough to break protocol. That’s how I knew it was real.

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